Twilight + Charmed =

Right after book 3 of the Twilight series came out my friend got me hooked. In addition my sister and I are currently captivated in watching all of the seasons of the TV series Charmed (I am almost about to start season six). Luckily the Library District has all the episodes that we can borrow for free.

I love the Library District! I just joined at the end of last year. Prior to last year I had not set foot in a Library in at least a decade. My have things changed. Who knew all the cool things they have and the best part is that it’s all FREE. I love requesting items online! Then just stopping by to pick up my requests and when I get there all I have to do is grab my stuff from the requests and then I can proceed to go check myself out (at the computer not in the bathroom mirror). ;-)

Requesting online is the best. There is no writing down any book numbers or searching high and low trying to find a certain item. They do it for you. I probably take advantage of it a little too much. Even if it’s at my location and it’s on the shelf - - I add to my requested items (I don’t go and find it myself). Which probably makes me lazy - Thank you library staff for getting my books for me, you’re awesome!!! On top of books I am usually checking out CD, DVD, self help, and cookbooks, and recent releases.

What do you get when you mix the Twilight books with the TV show Charmed? Answer: Vampires and Witches and my latest book obsession….White Witch, Black Curse.

Relationships

Relationships are hard and mine is in turmoil for the past month. I don’t even know what we are. Last week I was going to end things but I couldn’t do it without crying so I said nothing. We have been talking a little small talk here and there since then. Last week I totally felt ready to face the world as an almost single girl – I was thinking of myself as single just not “official”. I told or was asked by a few people and I just told them that I think my relationship with Kevin was ending.. One of my friends replied back with that I shouldn’t settle. Huh? Tell me how you really feel about it. Oh well. Not their life.

Over the weekend Kevin invited me to go to a bbq. I declined; I don’t think that it would be the best place to see each other. He told me he missed me and now I miss him too. I don’t know what to do. He is miserable and has to work out these issues on his own. All he does is work. And he doesn’t even like his job. Actually right now he hates his job. But his job is his number one priority. That just doesn’t make sense to me. I don’t understand how work is #1 when it is so hated. What does that say about our relationship? Maybe all we need it time. I don’t know if I can go back to how things where before the whole work got out of control.

At what point to I draw the line because I have nothing left to give. I do know that sorry isn’t good enough anymore. Sorry doesn’t mean anything if it’s only said. What I do know is that I won’t be spending the night at his place or hanging out over there. If we are to see each other it will be in a date type setting or when I go over there to get all my stuff. :-(

Cupcakes

I've been looking a lot things related to cupcakes lately. I decided to try my first batch last night.
It seemed easy enough to whip up some looking like...

And then after making those I thought I could tackle something very fancy like...

Well, it is a lot harder than it looks. I have hardly baked anything my entire life. It is way harder than it looks. Here was my first attempt at cute cupcakes.

I did a light orange, purple, and turquoise. Pretty good for my first attempts with coloring. Although frosting cupcakes is a lot more work than I thought. The cupcakes are a little higher than I had wanted. But they all came out in almost the same shape and size.

I was going to do the frosting with the light orange all over and then do a purple flower with teal leafs. See the orange cupcake below? That purple blob was my attempt at a flower. :-D

This is going to be a lot more work and a ton of practice!!!! On a happy note these cupcakes where better than any cake I've ever made. :-)

DVD Player

I bought a DVD player not very night long one late night trip to Walmart. Recently it started freezing the movie and or not reading the disk at all. I couldn't find the receipt or the box. My friend suggested that I try to return it because they have a very liberal return policy.

They took it back I got a new DVD player and twenty bucks store credit!!!

Only I think I'm going to have to return this one too. It doesn't have that htdmi (or whatever) hookup. That is probably why it was a bit less than the other one. I would have to reattach the AV jacks each time 1 want to play a game or watch a movie. And that just sounds like a pain in the butt.

Decisions

So my personal training contact ends in two or three weeks. I have been up in the air about what to do with this. I have been taking a metal list of all the reasons to stay or not to stay. Here it is:

Reasons to stay:

1. Lost inches
2. I am getting stronger!!!!
3. get in 30 minutes of working out 3 x a week
4. feel better
5. like group setting
6. I could probably do i in the gym now - but i probably would not stick to it three times a week.
7. need to keep losing weight - don't want to wear a brides maids tent in my sisters wedding.

Reasons not to stay:

1. Don't follow a diet (so not as effective as it could be)
2. expensive!!!
3. sometimes she pays more attention to how she looks in the mirror or business aspects (like people's after pictures).

I don't have much money right now so I am most nervous about signing another 3 month contract. If you pay month to month it's more. Although I just figured it out it's only $15 more a month. $15 is not that much if you break it out over all the sessions. That makes me feel better about signing a 1 month contract and not 3 months.

I take my test again on Saturday. This time I have been studying things. Yesterday I reviewed when the Constitution was signed, when it was ratified, Bill of Rights, Moroine Doctrine, Manifastdestiny. Social Studies is a little more interesting when you are older. ;-)

On the next pay cycle at work (which is in a week and a half) I am pretty sure I am going to request to start working 30 hours a week. There are some things that I want/have to do and I need money to do them.

1. take my car to the dealership for the 100,000 mile check up, see about getting the starter and hoses replaced. Oh and whatever the weird light is on for. ;-)
2. need to save money so start a CD ladder (has anyone done this? what did you think?)
3. want to go to Last Chance!!!! Last time i was there i got some major deals. I'll have to post pictures of my steals
4. would like to visit my sister in Germany before she comes back. Might be to late to start planning this though
5. need to build back up my savings account

I am not going to Grease this year with Michelle. She wanted to postpone it until next year. That was 110% okay with me.

Do I need to be a Stepford-girlfriend?

Turtles can breathe through their butts. [Glad I'm not that talented!] ;-)


I had my first green beer, it was pretty anticlimactic, if you want to know. It was fun to go out but I ended up spending my night at a Mexican bar. I know. I know. Wrong kind of bar. But, let me go back a few hours before. I started getting ready for the evening and I felt funny. After I was done with my hair my face was bright red, I felt nauseated, and had a headache. I had been looking forward to going out (and I had perfect hair - never happens) and I still wanted to go out.

I called Kevin and he told me to take a nap and that he was going to do the same. I laid in bed and it was one of those times where it doesn't feel like you fell asleep but I did. I felt so much better when I got up. My hair was no longer perfect but I did my best to put it back in place, got dressed, and did my makeup. I looked pretty dang cute. It had been awhile since I felt that cute, I'll have to work more on that. I get ready to leave grabbed my purse and my cell phone.

I check my texts and I have one from Kevin... "I was looking forward to going out... but I'm going to stay home and work."

Are you kidding me? I called him and it went right to voice mail. Well, I was not going to spend my night looking cute watching The Biggest Loser.

I got in my car and drove up to North Scottsdale. It takes me a little bit to drive up there so on the way I had time for butterflies to accumulate in my stomach. What was going to happen when I got there was he going to be home or maybe he lied and went out. Was this 5 month relationship going down the drain tonight?

When I got to his place all the lights were on. So, i went and knocked on the door. Kevin answered but I didn't get a hug hug and def. not a kiss. What a warm greeting. After small talk we head over to the Irish Pub. You didn't think the Mexican bar had green beer, did you? It was so crowded, no place to sit, and hard to talk. After a few plastic cups of green beer. We went across the street to Saltys where we could actually sit and talk. I kept ordering beer and had fun. Kevin was stressed from all the work he's been doing but every once in awhile would loosen up and have fun.

Things have been kinda of weird. Work consumes Kevin. He has a lot going on at his day job and they piss him off all the time and then he's working on getting his online rental business going when he is at home. I am trying my best to get along and be understanding of all his stress by TRYING to keep my tongue and comments to myself (not add fuel to his fire). It's really hard esp. when he can be passive-aggressive about things. Like the whole I'm not going out for St. Pattys anymore since you don't feel good even though i told you to take a nap but I'm mad about it...
Relationships are very hard for me. We all know that girl that HAS to be in a relationship well I'm the opposite of that girl.

I should be going over to his house tonight but I don't think it's fun sitting there watching TV while he works away on the computer. I want my fun Kevin back not this stressed out grumpy bear. However, I know if i don't start spending more time with him things will end. I'll have to suck it up and just go over there. Hmmm...better yet maybe I should just study for my test over there it's not like I'll have a lot of distractions.

It's time for me to step up and do my part of the good girlfriend.

I'm going green!

with beer that is!

I have never had green beer for St. Patricks Day before. Tomorrow night Kevin and I are going to go to a bar near where he lives for some green beer. A trolley runs near his place to one of his favorite bars. So nobody has to drive. I am looking forward to being drunk off my bum. ;-)

Have a fun and save St. Patricks Day!