Monday, March 30, 2009

DVD Player

I bought a DVD player not very night long one late night trip to Walmart. Recently it started freezing the movie and or not reading the disk at all. I couldn't find the receipt or the box. My friend suggested that I try to return it because they have a very liberal return policy.

They took it back I got a new DVD player and twenty bucks store credit!!!

Only I think I'm going to have to return this one too. It doesn't have that htdmi (or whatever) hookup. That is probably why it was a bit less than the other one. I would have to reattach the AV jacks each time 1 want to play a game or watch a movie. And that just sounds like a pain in the butt.

Thursday, March 26, 2009


So my personal training contact ends in two or three weeks. I have been up in the air about what to do with this. I have been taking a metal list of all the reasons to stay or not to stay. Here it is:

Reasons to stay:

  1. Lost inches
  2. I am getting stronger!!!!
  3. get in 30 minutes of working out 3 x a week
  4. feel better
  5. like group setting
  6. I could probably do i in the gym now - but i probably would not stick to it three times a week.
  7. need to keep losing weight - don't want to wear a brides maids tent in my sisters wedding.

Reasons not to stay:

  1. Don't follow a diet (so not as effective as it could be)
  2. expensive!!!
  3. sometimes she pays more attention to how she looks in the mirror or business aspects (like people's after pictures).
I don't have much money right now so I am most nervous about signing another 3 month contract. If you pay month to month it's more. Although I just figured it out it's only $15 more a month. $15 is not that much if you break it out over all the sessions. That makes me feel better about signing a 1 month contract and not 3 months.

I take my test again on Saturday. This time I have been studying things. Yesterday I reviewed when the Constitution was signed, when it was ratified, Bill of Rights, Moroine Doctrine, Manifastdestiny. Social Studies is a little more interesting when you are older. ;-)

On the next pay cycle at work (which is in a week and a half) I am pretty sure I am going to request to start working 30 hours a week. There are some things that I want/have to do and I need money to do them.

  1. take my car to the dealership for the 100,000 mile check up, see about getting the starter and hoses replaced. Oh and whatever the weird light is on for. ;-)
  2. need to save money so start a CD ladder (has anyone done this? what did you think?)
  3. want to go to Last Chance!!!! Last time i was there i got some major deals. I'll have to post pictures of my steals
  4. would like to visit my sister in Germany before she comes back. Might be to late to start planning this though
  5. need to build back up my savings account

I am not going to Grease this year with Michelle. She wanted to postpone it until next year. That was 110% okay with me.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Do I need to be a Stepford-girlfriend?

Turtles can breathe through their butts. [Glad I'm not that talented!] ;-)

I had my first green beer, it was pretty anticlimactic, if you want to know. It was fun to go out but I ended up spending my night at a Mexican bar. I know. I know. Wrong kind of bar. But, let me go back a few hours before. I started getting ready for the evening and I felt funny. After I was done with my hair my face was bright red, I felt nauseated, and had a headache. I had been looking forward to going out (and I had perfect hair - never happens) and I still wanted to go out.

I called Kevin and he told me to take a nap and that he was going to do the same. I laid in bed and it was one of those times where it doesn't feel like you fell asleep but I did. I felt so much better when I got up. My hair was no longer perfect but I did my best to put it back in place, got dressed, and did my makeup. I looked pretty dang cute. It had been awhile since I felt that cute, I'll have to work more on that. I get ready to leave grabbed my purse and my cell phone.

I check my texts and I have one from Kevin... "I was looking forward to going out... but I'm going to stay home and work."

Are you kidding me? I called him and it went right to voice mail. Well, I was not going to spend my night looking cute watching The Biggest Loser.

I got in my car and drove up to North Scottsdale. It takes me a little bit to drive up there so on the way I had time for butterflies to accumulate in my stomach. What was going to happen when I got there was he going to be home or maybe he lied and went out. Was this 5 month relationship going down the drain tonight?

When I got to his place all the lights were on. So, i went and knocked on the door. Kevin answered but I didn't get a hug hug and def. not a kiss. What a warm greeting. After small talk we head over to the Irish Pub. You didn't think the Mexican bar had green beer, did you? It was so crowded, no place to sit, and hard to talk. After a few plastic cups of green beer. We went across the street to Saltys where we could actually sit and talk. I kept ordering beer and had fun. Kevin was stressed from all the work he's been doing but every once in awhile would loosen up and have fun.

Things have been kinda of weird. Work consumes Kevin. He has a lot going on at his day job and they piss him off all the time and then he's working on getting his online rental business going when he is at home. I am trying my best to get along and be understanding of all his stress by TRYING to keep my tongue and comments to myself (not add fuel to his fire). It's really hard esp. when he can be passive-aggressive about things. Like the whole I'm not going out for St. Pattys anymore since you don't feel good even though i told you to take a nap but I'm mad about it...
Relationships are very hard for me. We all know that girl that HAS to be in a relationship well I'm the opposite of that girl.

I should be going over to his house tonight but I don't think it's fun sitting there watching TV while he works away on the computer. I want my fun Kevin back not this stressed out grumpy bear. However, I know if i don't start spending more time with him things will end. I'll have to suck it up and just go over there. Hmmm...better yet maybe I should just study for my test over there it's not like I'll have a lot of distractions.

It's time for me to step up and do my part of the good girlfriend.

Monday, March 16, 2009

I'm going green!

with beer that is!

I have never had green beer for St. Patricks Day before. Tomorrow night Kevin and I are going to go to a bar near where he lives for some green beer. A trolley runs near his place to one of his favorite bars. So nobody has to drive. I am looking forward to being drunk off my bum. ;-)

Have a fun and save St. Patricks Day!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I need a sign

For the last couple of months I have felt turmoil in my life. I know things aren't that bad I have a job, I graduated from college, and I made it to thirty (woohoo). It's just that I have no idea what to do with my life. Shouldn't I feel more complete now that I am done with school? Instead I feel like I'm walking around like a lost puppy. I know for some this doesn't seem like a big deal since I don't have anything that requires me to do certain things. In a way I am like a free bird (okay what's with comparing my life to all these animals??? I think I've been around the kiddos at school for to long).

The thing is I don't know what I want: I don't know if I want to be a teacher. Don't get me wrong, I love working with the kids and getting to know them and figuring how to make them the best that they can be. I just do not know if I want to deal with the burocracy of the system. Maybe I am just frustrated that I haven't passed one of the tests, I am not sure. I would love to work in a classroom with a teacher. But to be honest (and I mean no offence with this) there is no way I'm going to work for $12 or $14 bucks per hour. Maybe if it wasn't just me relying on my income I would feel differently. Also, some schools I have visited these people are looked down upon. Sure they might not have the same qualifications as a teacher but they are there with the same goal and heart in mind (lets hope) and that is to help these kiddos grow and develop the best of THEIR ability.

Another thing I have been thinking about is buying my own house. I would have to start working a lot more. Do I want that. I actually (as weird and crazy as it seems for a 30 year old) like living at my parents house with my sister. I have my own space, I hardly have to do a thing, and I get to do what I want and all without having to pay a dime. I guess this makes me a freeloader. I spent my teens and early twenties running away from my parents and now they can't seem to get rid of me. However, with the housing market pretty much going back in time (one thing I had always regretted was not buying a house before the housing boom - even though I went looking with my parents) and now with these prices being at an all time low I should really get my feet in and jump into home ownership.

Lately I keep thinking about jobs that deal with accounting. Of course my education degree is not going to be sufficient enough although I wonder if my job would help me since I have a "little" bit of experience. Of course I could take classes at the community college and see what I think of them. I looked it up thought and it would take me about two-three years to get an accounting degree. I don't know if I want to invest that kind of energy.

Maybe I need to focus on family life. I started telling myself within the last year or so that I would adopt if I am not married with kids at the age of 38. I wouldn't want to adopt a baby. I don't believe that a kid needs to be biologically mine for me to give them a home, love, and help them grow. I use to watch Babystory and Adoption Stories on TLC. Adoptions Stories always made me tear eyed while Babystory never did. I always have wondered if that's a sign.

Of course I have also thought about buying a horse, planting a garden, foster caring for a great dane, and moving to another state or even into dad's empty ugly house on the other side of town within the last month.

Don't get me wrong I have been doing lots of fun things with all of my new found freedoms. I just don't know what to focus on, what path to take, or what I want to do with my life. :-

Sunday, March 8, 2009


When I was at the Personal Trainers for a makeup day on Friday she decided to measure me when my groups session was over.

I was nervous I have been eating better than I was before I started(but not as good as I should). The whole no wine and one cheat meal a week is not really something I believe in.... ;-)

I didn't want to hear what she was going to say, esp. since my weight hasn't changed too much.

To my shock I have lost inches in my chest, upper and lower waist, and things. WOOOHOOO
The only part that had no change was in my arms.

And the best part... she told me I'm doing great with my diet and to keep it up. ;-)

I have about 4 weeks left until I'm done with my contract. I really need to focus on eating right and getting to the gym more. There will probably not be many other times in my life where I have so little responsibility along with a lot of free time, so I need to take an advantage of it.